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Broken Elven bridge at the Enchanted River in Mirkwood.
I want to get more comfortable being uncomfortable. I want to get more confident being uncertain. I don’t want to shrink back just because something isn’t easy. I want to push back, and make more room in the area between I can’t and I can.
Kristin Armstrong (via yourhatemademe)

wow my law ed class has zero empathy or tolerance or basic respect for fellow human beings

AU where the "Among the Sleep" baby is actually baby Eddie


I guess this AU means A SUPER RIDICULOUS LONG POST [with more of the violent shit underneath the cut; don’t take this as me defending Eddie or excusing Eddie… but given an “Among the Sleep” background… this might be how his life would’ve turned out???]

  • "I’d never hurt our babies" is substance abuse / alcoholism & vowing never to physically abuse "our children" … like his mother did to him… he would never be that cruel; "I would never place anything else before our children; not a thing - you have my word"
  • Baby Eddie saw his mother oscillate between trusting & loving mother figure to terrifying & threatening monster, & saw how easily she could switch between the 2 in a matter of moments
  • Baby Eddie heard his mother guilt him into thinking it was his fault she had to drink; he normalized guilt-tripping, undermining, & manipulation as traits to carry into adulthood, but @ the same time swore not to use those with his “babies”
  • Baby Eddie grew up & harbored an intense hatred toward his mother for obviously abusing him, possibly hating his father for not saving him sooner; he hates both of them for leaving him alone
  • Baby Eddie grew up through a divorce & never really knew what “marriage” was; his mother burned the wedding album & she didn’t even wear a ring; it’s like the marriage never even existed; he consumes as much as he can through the media & develops a very twisted & all-too-ideal version of it
  • Baby Eddie grows up to be Adult Eddie, with lots of demons in his head; the nightmares of the black shadow in the trenchcoat & the screaming woman with her well don’t give him any solace
  • Adult Eddie goes the same path he does in the main universe - carrying out his hatred toward a parent on innocent women, but now it’s a lot more personal
  • & because he was robbed of having a happy nuclear family, he strives for it - to have the marriage “his parents never had” & to marry someone just like dear old dad, but better
  • He gives them test runs & timelines - maybe this one won’t be a disappointment
  • He takes them on dates; he tries to smooth talk them - lull them into a false sense of security, just like she did with him; he’s actually very popular with the ladies; he’s actually very charming when he’s not sadistic - they never see it coming
  • But they always disappoint him

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trager in the engine. did he know waylon? also, how did trager know miles was martin's guy?


I don’t think so.  Trager’s been down there I think WAAAY longer than Waylon has been affiliated with the Murkoff corporation.  There have probably been A LOT MORE computer programmers / software engineers / overal tech people besides Waylon.  Maybe some of the Variants you see limping around are what remain of them.

Plus from the wiki there’s this tidbit:

He later got a job in the field of software consulting and at some point, acquired a two week contract deal with Murkoff Corporation at Mount Massive Asylum, with a level three security clearance, where he would maintain the Morphogenic Engine and additional programming, alongside Murkoff’s research and development division.

He hasn’t been there for very long & his stint is probably up very soon - which is why Blaire [& other people] are surprised Park blew the whistle in the first place. HE COULD HAVE LEFT POSSIBLY WITHOUT ANY INCIDENT IF HE KEPT HIS NOSE DOWN.  Park could have been in & out & not witnessed anything.  But I have a feeling that the Murkoff corporation operates a lot like the SCP Foundation.  

Class D personnel are to be given regular mandatory psychiatric evaluations and are to be administered an amnestic of at least Class B strength or terminated at the end of the month at the discretion of on-site security or medical staff. 

Given that Waylon is actually working with the very dream technology - given that he’s actually WRITTEN CODE & SEEN PEOPLE LIKE EDDIE BEG FOR HIM TO HELP - I’m not sure they’d just let him waltz out of there.  Even paying a person off has risks; they probably would have given some amnesia-inducing agent… or maybe STILL would’ve thrown him in there. Given Blaire’s ruthlessness… THEY VERY WELL MIGHT HAVE.

The Trager-Miles question… you could go a few ways.  I CAME UP WITH A TERRIFYING THIRD OPTION I SCARE MYSELF.

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You come with with some pretty fantastic headcanons for Outlast, so I'm really curious about your take on Outlast 2, if they decide to make a sequel. Like, what do you think they'll include in a second game, and what would you like to see?


One of the questions for the Outlast Voice Meme / challenge was your question.  & I answered that.  

But the main thing is: I am in favor of a Murkoff SWAT DLC very much.  & I am in favor of Outlast 2 focusing on all the female Variants in another facility:

  • Like I’m so interested in how fucking scary & un-“female” they look - the male Variants don’t even look like “men” for the most part.  TBH they probably look like the men with their disfigured faces & discolored, shriveling skin.  They’re probably losing a lot of their hair.  Just REALLY DISTURBING CHARACTER DESIGNS THAT AREN’T SEXUALIZING WOMEN JUST FOR THE MALE GAZE.  Ya’ll can have scary female characters & not rely on boob physics.  I have faith.
  • But I want a lot of backstory into why they had to leave.  Your character collecting notes about that process & how facilities used to be with the male & female ward actually being “correctly” used.
  • HELLA DETAILS about what caused all their pregnancies & miscarriages - how the Swarm specifically affects reproductive systems [because me & wutruffbeest have meta’d & have tried to reason, but these are just headcanons & we want the REAL ANSWERS]
  • & BRUH I ESPECIALLY WANT BACKSTORY & EXAMPLES IN-GAME of them being pitted against each other & fighting to the death… female Variant death pits of them after the entire facility has gone to hell - like y’know in the main game there’s the cells & Walker rips a fool’s head off & you’re from above??? Well imagine all these Variants organizing fight matches & that’s how they “manage” each other in the absence of Murkoff agents.  Give me female death matches.
  • Lisa Park being the main protag for Outlast 2, probably because Jeremy Blaire is a douchebag & probably “recommended” her for treatment because of her husband.  Lisa Park kicking ass just like every other protag.
  • Walrider!Miles teaming up with Waylon & protecting him & the family.
  • Walrider!Miles perhaps coming into contact with other hosts from other facilities.  Perhaps giving us insight into how the Swarm REALLY latches into a host.  How lateral ascension really works.  Cuz I wanna say I’m right with all my headcanons but I’m probably not.
  • + this might be interesting to see how the Walrider relates in a female host, because the Walrider is probably gendered “male”????  More info plz, Red Barrels.
  • US SEEING HOW “IN CONTROL” / “CONSCIOUS” MILES IS - cuz again I wanna assume he’s fully in control & the Walrider is completely integrated, but we just don’t know..  But I wanna see him duke it out with other hosts.
  • I’d really like to see the same camera mechanics, but they might change it up???? I have no idea.
  • I have faith in where they’re going to take the sequel, if they decide to.  I have faith it won’t be a cheap lazy make - because the DLC was fantastic & a perfect addition.
  • Any new DLC or sequel will probably be made with the same attention.


As requested, a few more brightened pictures.

happy first day of fall, and happy hobbit day! 🍂